I'm Getting There.....Slowly

Last Wednesday I went in for my injections.  Turns out that they were my final injections.  I am finally at the size that I should be for the switch out at the end of October.  

I had the full 120cc put into the right side as always.  It looks fantastic.  I'm very pleased with the results and know that once the implant is in, it will look so much better.  On the left she only put in 60cc.  With the way that the muscle turned and the expander turned, I was stretching the wrong way.  So to avoid having to do more repair than necessary, I took less.  Essentially what is going to happen is the left side is going to have a bit of a bigger implant. 

The implant has to be bigger because of the need to manipulate the muscle back to the way that it is supposed to be.  I'll end up having 2 scars on the left breast instead of 1 like on the right.  At this point it doesn't really matter about the scarring as I am sure that Dr. Mess will do a fantastic job to make them look perfect.

While that is still awhile off, I still am dealing with the muscle spasms.  From the day of the injections until Monday morning, I have had horrid spasms.  Wednesday, the pain hit about 10 minutes after I left Dr. Mess' office.  I ended up taking all the meds I could in the 24 hour time period and still got no relief or quality sleep.  

The night before the injections, I had someone very important to me break my heart.  I had been running on 2 hours of sleep and then I went in for injections.  That was not a smart move.  Then you add the pain of the spasms and still not being able to sleep on top of it, I ended up sleeping for maybe 4-5 hours over a 48 hour period.  Each morning I was waking up unable to pull myself out of bed and having to depend on Andy to lift me up so I could just get out of the bed.  

The last couple of days haven't been so bad, but physically I think I have broken down as much as I can.  While the pain is easing up, I still find some tasks difficult to do.  To me that is frustrating.  Typing on the computer for too long causes pain to shoot up and down my right arm.  Remember, that is the side that the nodes were removed from.  I continue to do stretches on it and anything else that I need to for it to try and feel better.  

I'm trying not to Google too much to try and get answers.  Afterall, not every case is the same and not every person is the same.  I just hope that I don't have to deal with muscle spasms when the implants are put in.  I'm not sure how much more of those I would be able to deal with.  While it is true that I am a strong person, there is a breaking point as well.

That is all that I have for this morning.  Please excuse if it sounds like ramblings as I am still tired but wanted to get the thoughts out and the blog updated.  I hope all of you have a blessed day and thank you for continuing to love me through it.

A Reminder to All and An Update on My Sister

First I will start with the update on my sister.  If you haven't been following me the whole time, then this information will be helpful to you.  My sister Michelle was diagnosed with atypical hyperplasia.  Basically, she had pre-cancerous cells.  So, she chose to have a prophylactic bilateral mastectomy done.  While I am 3 weeks ahead of her in this journey, we are able to go through it with each other.

She finally had her drain tubes removed yesterday, after having them in for over a week.  Then you put the other stuff that she has told me about her doctors, I just want to go pick her up from Ohio and bring her out here and let my care team take care of her.  So anyhow, they still are going to wait another 2 weeks before they start pumping her up.  Okay then.....

When they removed her left breast (which is the one she was having issues with), they found that she was a ticking time bomb.  She was full of those pre-cancerous cells.  Thank you God for letting my own breast issues warrant my sister to check herself.  I've been told that I helped to save her life.  That's a good feeling, but I also just wanted to make sure that my sisters were to take care of themselves and listen to their bodies.

Now, the reminder to you all.

This morning I woke up to a post on Facebook that I was tagged in.  I'm not going to go into detail as I don't want to violate the privacy of this person, but she is having issues that I remember started before my journey really started.  I don't want to scare her, but I also don't want her to ignore things.

So, if you feel like something is off, go have it checked out.  If you still think that something isn't right even when the doctor says you are fine, get a 2nd opinion.  I was never really good at doing that until this happened to me.  Oh, and another word of advice STOP GOOGLING symptoms.  You'll end up driving yourself crazy and diagnosing yourself with stuff that is not even remotely close.  Yes, I did the whole Google thing and scared myself.  Even now Dr. Mess and Renee tell me to stop Googling and just let it go or ask them about it.  So that is my advice for the day.

One more thing that I just realized....I am 1 month and 1 day post op and the cancer cells have been removed from me.  However, since there is no 100%  cancer free given until the 5 year mark, I will gladly count each of these months until that 5 year mark.

I hope each of you have a beautiful and blessed day and thank you for loving me through it.