48 Hours

In 48 hours, I will be on my way to the hospital to get this journey truly started.  I'd be lying if I said I am okay.  I'd be lying if I said that I'm not terrified.  I'd be lying if I said that I woke up this morning in tears when the realization hit me.

Yesterday, the anesthesiologist office called me to remind me of what to do and what not to do.  No eating, drinking, or chewing gum after midnight.  Make sure that I take all my jewelry off.  Make sure that I don't have deodorant or any kind of lotion on.  And of course, they will see me on Friday morning.  *sigh*  Okay, this shit just got real.  I figured that my last phone call before this would be from the anesthesiologist since that's how it was before I had the excisional biopsy.

My mother-in-law is driving in today.  She should be here sometime tonight.  It's a long drive up from Jacksonville, and I appreciate her coming.  My mom will be back on Saturday.  So I have 2 moms that are coming to take care of me.  I'm thankful that they  are going to take care of me.  I just hope that I'm not too much of a burden on them. I know that they will say that I'm not, but there is a lot that is going to be put on them.

Anyhow, I've got things that need to be done today that I can't do until after the surgery.  I hope that all of you have a good day.

More Information Isn't Bad News Right?

So 2 of my older sisters were having breast issues.  Both of them went in for procedures which essentially turned into them having biopsies.  Sister 1 Lynda has not gotten the results back, at least not that I know of.  Sister 2 Chelle did get her results back.  She has been diagnosed with Atypical Hyperplasia.

Atypical Hyperplasia, according to the Mayo clinic is a precancerous condition in the breast.  So, she doesn't have a breast cancer diagnosis, but it could turn into it if it is not taken care of.  For the time being she is not going to do anything.  She did go in to have the BRAC testing done to see if it is genetic.  If it is, then she will be getting a new set of boobs too.  We should know the results of it in 2 weeks.

So that leads to my next set of concerns.

All 3 of my older sisters have had hysterectomies due to several different issues.  One of the sisters actually had cervical cancer.  If that isn't scary enough, my mom had a full hysterectomy years ago due to tumors that didn't appear to be cancerous, and my little sister Holli had an ovary removed during pregnancy due to a cyst.

So if this test comes back positive and already knowing of the girly part issues that there is in the family, should I push to have a hysterectomy done?  The last thing that I need on top of the already devastating crap I am dealing with is to find out I have some kind of girly part cancer.

Then the question is, will the insurance cover it?  Will the doctor agree to it?  Would it be considered necessary or not?  I know I'm probably doing more worrying than I need to right now, but this is serious stuff that is hitting all at the same time.  Not that I really want a hysterectomy (while it would be nice to not have the witch visit), I don't want to do something that is not medically necessary.  I also don't want to take any chances.

I'm really not sure if I want to know the information or not.  I feel like it is opening Pandora's box, but on the other hand it may be great for preventative measures.