I had the full 120cc put into the right side as always. It looks fantastic. I'm very pleased with the results and know that once the implant is in, it will look so much better. On the left she only put in 60cc. With the way that the muscle turned and the expander turned, I was stretching the wrong way. So to avoid having to do more repair than necessary, I took less. Essentially what is going to happen is the left side is going to have a bit of a bigger implant.
The implant has to be bigger because of the need to manipulate the muscle back to the way that it is supposed to be. I'll end up having 2 scars on the left breast instead of 1 like on the right. At this point it doesn't really matter about the scarring as I am sure that Dr. Mess will do a fantastic job to make them look perfect.
While that is still awhile off, I still am dealing with the muscle spasms. From the day of the injections until Monday morning, I have had horrid spasms. Wednesday, the pain hit about 10 minutes after I left Dr. Mess' office. I ended up taking all the meds I could in the 24 hour time period and still got no relief or quality sleep.
The night before the injections, I had someone very important to me break my heart. I had been running on 2 hours of sleep and then I went in for injections. That was not a smart move. Then you add the pain of the spasms and still not being able to sleep on top of it, I ended up sleeping for maybe 4-5 hours over a 48 hour period. Each morning I was waking up unable to pull myself out of bed and having to depend on Andy to lift me up so I could just get out of the bed.
The last couple of days haven't been so bad, but physically I think I have broken down as much as I can. While the pain is easing up, I still find some tasks difficult to do. To me that is frustrating. Typing on the computer for too long causes pain to shoot up and down my right arm. Remember, that is the side that the nodes were removed from. I continue to do stretches on it and anything else that I need to for it to try and feel better.
I'm trying not to Google too much to try and get answers. Afterall, not every case is the same and not every person is the same. I just hope that I don't have to deal with muscle spasms when the implants are put in. I'm not sure how much more of those I would be able to deal with. While it is true that I am a strong person, there is a breaking point as well.
That is all that I have for this morning. Please excuse if it sounds like ramblings as I am still tired but wanted to get the thoughts out and the blog updated. I hope all of you have a blessed day and thank you for continuing to love me through it.
