Today is the day. I am finally getting my tattoos to cover up my scars. I woke up so excited and still am. The one part of this journey that has kept me sad is going to go away. Okay, maybe they won't go away, but they are going to be covered up so I won't have to see them.
I know for some people, they can wear their scars proudly to show that they beat cancer. I on the other hand have had a terrible time dealing with them. I know that it is a symbol of rising above a nasty disease, but emotionally, it hasn't been easy. I've used the Rejuvasil religiously, but it hasn't faded these scars enough. I still find myself looking in the mirror in disgust. I don't want to do that anymore.
When I look at my chest, I want to smile. I want to be comfortable looking at myself again. These tattoos are going to be the symbol of strength for me. So while I am emotional about having them done, I know that this is the final step of this journey.
I don't know if my tattoo artist will really be able to understand the effects that her work is going to have on me. I'm sure through talking with her about everything, she'll know how appreciative I am for what she is doing for me. She has the ability to take away something painful.
I'm hoping one of the other artists or even the manager can take random pictures for me so that I can share them with ya'll. More than anything, I would love for there to be a picture of the reveal to me. Just so I can see for myself, the reaction that I'm going to have.
If you wanna check out my tattoo artist Jackie, this is where you can find her. http://www.blacklotustattoos.com/jackie-singer-sabur.html She also works in the shop owned by the famous Halo Jankowski that you can find on this season of Inkmaster on Spike tv.
For now, I'm going to mentally prepare myself for this step and will post when the beauties are done. May each and every one of you have a beautiful and blessed day.
